I don’t want to look at my story. I never want to see it again. Ever.
Except that I do. While I’m setting fire to it. And then I want to watch it burn, bits of it floating up into the sky, carrying its flamey destruction with it…
So I realized today that except for a break to write the beginning of Beast, (and a week-and-a-half vacation which shaded into editing-planning) I’ve spent the last six months editing. More, actually, because I started my editing streak in December.
No wonder I’m about to start tearing my hair out.
I’m taking tonight off. I’m going to accomplish some things that really need doing. Like cleaning my bedroom, which has gotten piled somewhat of late. And cleaning my desk (yet again).
Tomorrow I’m helping my friend with her router, probably staying into the evening to swim and have dinner and talk.
Thursday, if I can face it, I’ll start getting the edits I’ve made so far in. Or maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll decide it will be easier to pick up next time if next time I start with inputting the changes I’ve already made.
Maybe between now and Thursday I’ll decide I’m being whiny, and I need to push forward. I doubt it, though. I know how to finish things. And I know there are times when I need to come back and do them later. I finished Rafe, Keen, Joss, Hiro, and Fidelis that way. I know it works.
Opinions welcome. How do you know when to drop it? Any suggestions for pushing on? (like, reminding me that I didn’t want to drop it so I wouldn’t have to go through the beginning-to-edit flail more than necessary? >_> )
*steals all fire-starting objects* I’m glad you know when a break is needed, instead of realizing after you’d burned the book that you just needed a day or two off. Have lots of fun tomorrow (well, after the router, I suppose).
Well, I’m actually thinking more than a day or two. I’m thinking I’ll take two, then either I’ll do the type-in or I won’t, and then I’ll abandon the Doomy Summer of Editing DOOM because I just can’t stand to edit any more right now.
That, or I’ll get over myself and start editing again. >_>
Whatever works for you. I just want Ben (and Eve!) to be safe.
*huuuugs*
I stop working on a project when I sit there, staring at it, and realize I would rather be ANYWHERE else except there working on it. Yes, editing hits rough points and it drives you crazy, but when you are truly truly in hatred with the thing, it’s time to set it aside for the time being and work on something else.
Hmm. Perhaps that’s why my bathroom is all sparkly clean today… (Except the tub. Don’t look in the tub yet.) >_>