May 2004

The End of Day Five

Five days. It’s hard to comprehend. I have survived without him for five days now. Am I supposed to celebrate? People are expecting me to start getting back to normal. I’m usually indecisive, but lately it’s been hideous. Someone asks what I want to drink, and my mind goes blank. Then I think about why […]

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The Recently Bereaved

Not that I’m the Miss Manners of the Bereaved, but I thought I’d say my bit. Gives me a chance to vent, might help you. Winners all around. Don’t say, “If you ever need anything, call,” unless you mean EVER. And ANYTHING. Insincerity is never a good thing, to those in pain it can be

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Without a Ripple

He’s dead, and they don’t even notice. I just searched the sites of the local paper, and all three local stations. Three, people, this isn’t New York City. I searched his name, the name of the motel, the street the motel is on, suicide, and drug overdose. Nothing. What gives them the right to decide

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Do They Make This Crap Up?

Why does everything have to be so complicated at such a time? I do things when I need to cope. That’s how I survive. But I’d much rather be cleaning my house than trying to figure out what I’m supposed to do about an obituary. I’m guessing I’m the one who has to do that,

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I Will NOT be Ashamed!

You tried to make me ashamed, tried to separate us, tried to make me give him up. Well, congratulations. You got what you wanted. For being mentally ill, and an alcoholic–RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC, damn you!–he received a death sentence. But hey. He’s not messing up our lives any more, right? You have achieved your end, triumphed

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Memories Fade

Memories fade, far too quickly. I was twelve when my mom died, and I barely remember her. She deserves better than that, but what can I do? She was one of those who always ducked the camera. She gained weight when she got pregnant with her first child, and probably never thought how much the

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A Day in E-Mail

An actal e-mail exchange, edited only for privacy and odd paragraph breaks. Yes, he had his problems, and we had some rough times. But he didn’t deserve to die! cyborgs are real they invented a diviice that can hook into the brain and give internet access tectv says its been done to 2 ppl Well,

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